by Sumana Roy
He was a part-time prophet, a full-time love clerk. A beard my mother called 'Chinese lace'. Eyeball to eyeball, a piano gaze, its black keys his power. His eyelids were fans that cooled magma beds, his vision a lamp that drew in pigtailed heads. Love was air: "Made in China". Lunch was martyrdom we escaped at his cheap store. Pockets were foliage we plucked coins from. 25, 50 and 1. The jingling of lust, its impatient iron smell. Our greedy hisses and finger damp calligraphy on a prayer bell. Sunlight on his beak and wise teeth – garlic-clove trail. Love was a footstep: "Made in China". Lip soft his magic cloak, bubble gum scented his whisper. His hand in my pocket: it was rape of a tree. Then flood on the tongue – a faithful Lhasa lake. His China store was a wedding night bedroom – touch was free. A paedophile's patience. Nothing was real, no sweat nor love stain. No one broke bread. Only one game – farmer in the den. Love was terror: "Made in China". Laughing Buddha grew wings and belly, I learnt a cactus’s tune, I forsook ribbons, I wrote on great walls, I grew immune. Love was ice – I changed pockets for sense pillars. Adulthood was a new vice. Bones became bread and saliva soup. But I remained loyal. Love was betrayal: "Made in China". |