by Wendy Xu
1.
In a dream you have three doors and drag your feet to the first
where you find a white horse and you are its owner.
The horse takes you all over the place, never complaining when it's late
or the vegetables are wilted because there's nowhere to plug in
the ice-box. When the nights get cold you have each other.
When the sun hurts your eyes you're offered a soft mane,
or a pattering of hooves like music. The horse brings down a branch
to offer you an orange. When the sky reveals a cloud
you look to the horse, already laid like an answer at your feet.
2.
Sadness is only a familiar melody because you refuse to play it backwards,
laid down and took it like a helpless animal.
The field needs to be grazed as much as the horse that eats of it,
and when we eat of it we become it.
3.
Stream, inlet, forest, opened up to repetition because being human means stealing
that backwards glance,
took some berries from the horse’s mouth. Took a job in a different city
and on especially lonesome days scrawled out return messages
on a sheet of flaming ink, picked up the telephone
to hold it.
4.
If asked what do you make of it, what else is there?
Look:
after the storm, the trees keep raining for a while longer.
Arguments are little things you pull out of the air
and yes, sorrow is in cahoots with ecstasy.
It doesn't have to mean impossible.
5.
Carried bareback and asleep, you trust your companion and feed him
a handful of unwashed cherries, throw out the alarm clock but sometimes
still wake from imaginary fires.
Horses are made of steel cages on legs, their hearts are much bigger than yours.
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