by Joanne Lee
Ban-chan I was hungry. My mother prepared a table: pickled cabbage, thick-sliced radishes, tofu stew. She forgot to serve the semen of the strong and tender, so I took videos of my un-wet lips, and posted them on YouTube. The White LineI look like my mother, now. She was always so frail, even when I was small, I surely could have carried her on my back the way my grandmother carried me on her back. My mother had crooked legs. And I have crooked legs. I was told to walk along on an imaginary line, and I believed—I believed it was a line my mother drew for me with a piece of white chalk, while I slept. She could not iron out my bones, she could not uncurl the fists I clenched while I dreamt of her, on lonely lightless nights, while she carved omens into the pavement outside our home. My mother ate persimmons, her small tongue was quick and I could hear the “click click clicK” of her jaw as she plumbed the orange blossoms, because she stayed up all night washing the chalk from her sparrowed hands. Hato I will take your words, today, like Seoul Hahl-muh-nee would take all the hato cards. She would eat them at night, with cured cod and acorn mousse, swept into her belly until
she was filled.
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