by Camille Hong Xin
It might be all right. The deer walk in the middle of the street looking relaxed, while we all hold our breath. Only the moon coughs a little in the secrecy of our flooded backyard. It might come back when the deer stop running away, when they can look into your eyes. And the raven— gives birth to a contraceptive sky that will not produce any new images. The clouds press low, to the very flesh of the lake, sending arrows from its muffled cry. Slowly, the wave. A carp shoots up from the water, glittering in its mid-air somersault. Why does it jump if not for coming back? As if brooding for a long time until its scales rust, the weeds growing in its gill, elusive and exuberant. Well, you just have to let it be. The wind, undetectable beneath the surface, inflamed by the ambiguous scent of moonlight. Once the storm starts, the water resumes its peace. Things only run the way you believe. The fish leaps with a determined turn, then falls back, but not the one it was once in. You, return to where you came from, alone and wounded. |